Another chapter in my life.... had an epiphany of sought... My cousin had an accident & was in hospital. the same one I am studying in. It was a pathetic situation since I've not told my family about my academic debacle. There were times when they came close to know about my stutters in college. but thank god everything went down smoothly & the reality is still under wraps from them... for now....
The blog entry is though not for this episode but for the fact that I met many of my former classmates & I was depressed that they had moved on & I am still stuck... They are now junior post grad students while I am still struggling with my grad degree... Most of them were my friends who were warm to me on my face but I guess they will not be like this behind me... I get a slight hint when one of the mate was ignoring me.. we were friends not the best but still were good enough.. he hugged me on meeting me but as soon as he found out that I am still giving exams which he cleared he started ignoring me.... I noticed it thrice.... twice while in direct conversation with him.. he left without giving any indication as if he was in a hurry but he was not...
I felt bad... I never did anything wrong to him & always considered him as a friend... Sure I have a myriad of problems 'coz of which I flunked so many times which I will elaborate some other time... but the point here is that I was expecting him to help me with my cousins crisis which he didn't... I guess its true that you will know who your real friends are when you are in trouble & who reaches out for you...
The shocker was that all the so called friends are now don't want anything to do with me 'coz I failed on their expectations which were not really their but for the social acceptance they put me through to.... Its not like I failed in academics but I failed them socially & like a cancer they don't want me near them...
True colors of human nature...
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