Now I am really frustrated, 'coz I am stuck... I am a Medical student in seventh year.... giving exams again & again but couldn't clear them still. Back in school I was not so bad with studies, Cleared all my senior school subjects in one go. The thing is I never wanted to be a doctor, but my father insisted that I should be one. It was his dream, & he made sure I follow it.
It was an emotional stress for me to get into Med. School. I was given no other option. I am pretty good with computers & was very much interested in pursuing a career in it but my family insisted that I should be doing nothing else... even though I did told them I am not cut out for this & will not be able to do it..
So, I cleared the pre Med & got the admission but the text & studies is so boaring, I cannot develop an interest in the subjects... As a result I flunked many times in pathology... I think I made a record in my class. All of my classmates have passed out but I am still here, even my best friend has cleared all his papers.
I've to give two papers in Aug. but I have still not started reading my books.. It does not interest me... I am most of the time on the internet on my coumputer.. I don't y chat but just pass my time, even watching stuff to download.... its a waste of time & think I am addicted... my age is running out also, being 26 & having no social life, who would want to be associated with a fellow like me who cannot study & clear papers again & again..
Sad, I am frustrated but not depressed.. I get confused a lot & panic but not that I injure myself or people around me... Lets hope I get over this phase in a positive way & able to clear my papers this time around.
Pray for me...
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