Laid back...

Now I am really frustrated, 'coz I am stuck... I am a Medical student in seventh year.... giving exams again & again but couldn't clear them still. Back in school I was not so bad with studies, Cleared all my senior school subjects in one go. The thing is I never wanted to be a doctor, but my father insisted that I should be one. It was his dream, & he made sure I follow it.

It was an emotional stress for me to get into Med. School. I was given no other option. I am pretty good with computers & was very much interested in pursuing a career in it but my family insisted that I should be doing nothing else... even though I did told them I am not cut out for this & will not be able to do it..

So, I cleared the pre Med & got the admission but the text & studies is so boaring, I cannot develop an interest in the subjects... As a result I flunked many times in pathology... I think I made a record in my class. All of my classmates have passed out but I am still here, even my best friend has cleared all his papers.

I've to give two papers in Aug. but I have still not started reading my books.. It does not interest me... I am most of the time on the internet on my coumputer.. I don't y chat but just pass my time, even watching stuff to download.... its a waste of time & think I am addicted... my age is running out also, being 26 & having no social life, who would want to be associated with a fellow like me who cannot study & clear papers again & again..

Sad, I am frustrated but not depressed.. I get confused a lot & panic but not that I injure myself or people around me... Lets hope I get over this phase in a positive way & able to clear my papers this time around.

Pray for me...

Beautiful Weather....

This is a good time of the year 'coz I like the weather.. not so cold not so hot.. Neither dry nor humid as well.. The kind you would enjoy the whole year but can't... Shifting weather pattern & all..

Frankly cyclic system of weather is essential.. You cannot have all the pieces of cake... but still my point is that this is a charming weather which everyone should enjoy to the fullest.. get out & get going, The breeze, mild sun & cool air with all the greenery fills your heart. But one problem though, this is the exam season so have to dig up books which I still fail to adhere to.. I really want to enjoy the weather but can't.. I have to live in a realist world where duties needs to be fulfilled..

Also you need to have someone to enjoy really the fruit... But being stag its out of the question.. Not that I don't meet many girls but my lifestyle is kind of unsocial 'coz of the field.. Not many interesting persons I get to meet everyday, and all the ones I meet are already taken.

Nevertheless hopefully I might get lucky but I seriously doubt it... God has its devices for all of us but the one with my name is somewhat lost. Any way back to the topic the weather is good & rains will start in a week, really enjoying the mood, at the same time worried about the books I need to finish & also getting my life back on track...

Till next time...

Chao...

I am boared & frustrated....

Really what a soggy day it was.. It was sunny & hot in the morning but by the evening clouds came out & the humidity was killing me.. Anyway I decided to go to the market & midway sun came up the heat was unbearable & to top of that I was low on gas in my bike. I had to go to 4 gas stations 'coz all the ones before that didn't had fuel... Apparently there is a shortage but thankfully I got the gas...

I reached the market to buy some fruits & the old fella didn't bothered to give lower price. to top it all he didn't let me choose the pieces, but I was adamant.. had a small shuffle with him & got what I want with a tad bit lower than what he asked me.. The heat though was so unbearable with humidity that I almost lost it but moved on... got a button cell for my calculator... paid the elect. bill & got back to the home in a jiffy.... The heat was boiling me so chilled a little.... After an hour I was calm & came back to my senses...

Finally in the evening it started raining.. the weather became pretty decent... The wind & shower was nice & calm pose for me.. Now its not raining & usually there is always wind around my home but now its calm...

Anyway it was a boring day & I hope that the next day would be interesting... At least I will be able to start with my books which I had been neglecting since a long time...

peace...